I haven't written a blog post here in a while. And I've changed a lot since my last post, in ways that I don't really know how to sum up here. I've just matured a bit, I think. Since my last post I've spent two extra months with my boyfriend, and hopefully I will totally move soon. Every month passes by, I say I need to tie up loose ends, my elderly dogs have some new ailment, ah I should schedule that appointment before I leave. Well it's true. And it sucks. I do need to just take the plunge here though. I miss snuggling in bed with my boyfriend, and he misses me too.

Being with my boyfriend and transitioning from my hermit state to a little social butterfly has really done me good. It's made my relationship with my body better, uncovered buried feelings, made me more resilient, and gotten me some sunshine. I've been re-evaluating my current friendships, pretty much all of which are online... and well, after my move I don't really want to be super online anymore. Being online just makes me an unproductive and negative person. I feel like I can't stay away from looking at bad stuff, or just running into bad stuff for that matter. I still love some of my old friends, most of which are shared with my boyfriend. Of course, I will keep in touch with them, hopefully for the rest of my life. But some of my online friendships are old but kinda weak in a way that makes me question what there is to do to fix them. As I get older our beliefs and interests are just not really meshing like they used to, and there's little emotional connection. It leaves me in a strange gray area where I don't want to leave, but I don't really want to check in as much. :(

During my visit I got so into collages and physical art versus the digital art and pencil scribbles I'm used to doing. I feel like collages are kind of my "thing". They feel good to do, don't stress me out, and I am actually pleased with how they come out. And damn it finally I can burn through my sticker collection without feeling too guilty over "wasting".

I also took up gemstone beading with my partner. When I come back I want to get into sewing with him; maybe we can make some plushies of our dogs. I also want to learn sewing techniques because I feel like sewing is a life skill everyone should know anyways. I don't just throw away my clothes with holes, but I'd love to learn how to effectively mend them so the end product looks nice, instead of only wearing them at home.

Here are some collages I made on my visit. Drag to a tab to see the full size.

Front and back of a personal journal.


A few cheap notepads I messed around on, not sure what to do with them yet.


This was a gift to my partner's sister. Less of my nature theme, more just random stuff she liked. She was trying to get into junk journaling so I gifted her a journal that I felt might help her on that journey. She really liked it and teared up. It made me feel great that someone appreciated my work and gift.

I might have something more thought provoking to write here later! This post is more like saying, I am alive. Or for myself, I can still do this little diary thing, maybe!